Me,me and more me.

SAWADEEKAP

2010-11-18T08:30:00.000-08:00

HEY YOU!
HAHAHA. BEING BORED RIGHT NOW. I FUCKING HAVING A HEADACHE RIGHT NOW. ITS HAPPEN TWO WEEKS AGO. MY COUGH IS SOWLY RECOVERING. STREPSILS REALLY DON'T WORK. DAMN. MANY THINGS NEED TO BE SETTLE FAST ENOUGH. I HOPE I CAN DO IT. LETS GO ISAM. HEHEHE! AND BTW, TODAY ITS MY FIRST EVER PLAYING TABLE TENNIS! OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE I PLAY IT. HAHAHA. NVMIND ITS FOR FUN ANYWAY. HAHAHA. OK THATS BOUT IT. HAHAHA.
KAAPKUKAP. :)

You are immature.

2010-11-15T00:53:00.000-08:00

you like playing games ah?
come here and talk in front of me.
kau nk tgk aku marah kn.
meh sini. aku sound kau habis habisan.
jgn ckp besar kt msg, fb, blog and msn dgn aku ok.
kau masih budak lagi.
bila jumpa kwn aku,dah nangis. jgn nk step tk bersalah ok.
kau tkya lah step mana punye kakak kt alam cyber dgn aku.
kau dgn kwn kau gi mampus lagi cantik.
kau dah perangai adik2. pergi berlakon kt okto ah. sajak dgn kebeloan kau.

this girl make me piss off like fuck.
dah main kayu tiga dgn kawan aku.
abeh carik psl dgn aku yg aku destroy relationship korg.
hello? kau yg main belakang ok. nabei.
waste my time! fuck you bitch!

2010-11-07T14:09:00.000-08:00

Its been long I have not updated my blog.
Due to busy with something.
BUSY=NO TIME.
haha.

"We start by saying hello.
And we end by saying goodbye.
Time is short.
But we enjoy ourself"

Time fly very fast when you having fun, sad, best, worst, high, low and so forth.
With such a blink of an eye,
2 years have past, and I going to graduate soon.
Seems like yesterday I was just enter ITE.
Memories in ITE have certainly one of the bestest.
The friends I made,
The knowledge I get,
and the exprience I obtained.

ITE is certainly not 'Its The End'
Hands On, Minds On, Hearts On.

Till here,

btw what is Family?

hope

2010-09-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

I need hope.
I need strength.

I need guidance.

I need love.

Thats all I asking for.

I never thought that this thing would happen to me.

Like seriously.

I am scared.

Is this the real world beginning to me?

I am confused.

I'm in pain.

When I thought the worst is done,

a new problem occur.

I wish everything will be alright.

If what my mum said is true and what my dad mean his words,

I will be disappointed.

Disappointed coz I'm not a good son to them.

Am I the source of the problem?

I feel like running away.

I hope that this will never happen.
Pls God, only you I can refer to now. Desperate in need.

Thought lately

2010-09-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I don't understand.
Sometimes I'm confused.
Sometimes I'm panic.
Sometimes I'm lost.
Sometimes I don't think of myself lately.
It always came out with one question to this; WHY?
Figuring answer out to that question is really hard.
Even harder than exam.
The only way to figuring out the question is; MYSELF.
I just need your guidance, Allah.
I really need it now.

"Sometimes it have to be in this way and remain this way."

2010-09-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

gee. she got a boyfriend now.
wish her luck and last long with him yea?
he is a great guy anyways.

aku jatuh cinta lagi! hahaha.
She wow! met her in the train just now.
if i met her again, ni mesti jodoh punye. hahahahaha! xD

thats all bye!

2010-09-04T12:57:00.000-07:00

Well I decided to post after a longtime i haven touch this blog of mine.
Things go well.
Family ok.
Friends ok.
studies....hmmm, could say ok too. Just pass my test. :D

Well, i do not know that you still hold grudges about me but I not.
cause i know its my mistake.
and i do not how to say sorry to you.
ego? nah, i just ashamed of myself.I don't meant to hurt you or what.
Sorry. :(

Ramadhan is ending soon, and syawal will be here soon.
I just don't feel happy to celebrate.
when we get older, the "happening" is not there.
I wish I can be a small kid and play bunga api and mercun(illegal) with my family, friends and neighbour.
Great times. :)

I miss you little sis. I hope you are doing well with yr studies.
pejam kelip pejam kelip, you are already 14.
its been 14 years we hardly met. only met during raya.
I really love you little sis. when will you coming back to us and know who is your real family.
I just sad that this year i haven met you yet. );
Gosh. Hope you will be save.

2010-08-17T00:05:00.000-07:00

So yea I finally decided to write.
itchy hand ah want to type. hahaha
So I been having a YOG break for two weeks.
mendak pe?
But luckily I can use this time to spend with my family.
Everything when alright i suppose.
spring cleaning the house for the past three days.
but still, berselerak juga.
hahaha

Last two days my mum fell down in the toliet.
I was kinda shocked.
I almost cry when I heard the news.
lucky me that my mum injuries are not so serious.
but the worst thing is she fell when no one at home.
thats where I breakdown.
I just love my mum.
not only her but my whole family.
I know I may not be a good son/siblings to my family.
but I just can't afford to lose you guys.
Family is what make me going in life.
Susah payah kita bersama, senang jua akhirnya bersama.
We are not rich nor poor. but what we have is happiness.
I really love my family alot.

That all.

Maybe

2010-07-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

Maybe I just let my blog rotten like this.
When I go private, people thought I write nonsense but actually I just dun feel to blog these days.
Now I dun private my blog.
dun think like a cow. Dumb fuck!
Don't 'oh' here and 'oh' there with me.
Get a life!

Hey girl, you make me fall for you.
Day by day we met, the feeling is stronger.
But I should just keep this feeling to me.
Can I go home with you again?
hehehehehe.
PS.'I kinda like YOU.'

sick

2010-07-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

got sick today.
unable to go to school.
tomorrow test!
i scared i can't pass.
screw me,anyone?

ITS EMPTY....

2010-07-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

Should I keep this blog private?
So that no one can read my blog only me can!
wahahahaha!
evil me.

at school,
FAIZ: how are you?
Me: How are me?
FAIZ: Ehk2 kau. aku tanya kau, kau tanya aku balik? *laughing non-stop*
hahaha! i keep laughing about just now incident odw to class.
SCHOOL ROCKS!

HISTORY

2010-07-01T04:09:00.000-07:00

Should I write myself on the history book?

Since you been gone.
I trying to find ways to forget you.
I become more like a stalker that stalk your well-being.
Gosh.
Don't tell me.
I need something to distract my thinking about you.
Why oh Why?

All the wasted timing,
hours that were left behind me,
answers that I will never find,
they don't mean a thing tonight.

Remebering Sunday. My desperate endeavour. Just my luck.

2010-06-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

Holidays been boring after the trip.
I wish we still at the trip.
Miss all the fun and laughter.
OMG.

Can't wait for saturday and sunday.
Saturday-OAC BBQ Pit
Sunday-with love.

=))))))

Will be away.

2010-06-19T03:17:00.001-07:00

Okay guys.
The wait is over.
I will be away to Pahang for my OAC Trip.
I will be back on friday 25/6/10.
I will definitely miss my Family, friends and YOU!
But I looking forward for this trip.
Hope that everything went well and safely thru and for journey.
Amin.

Go to go!
miss ya!

Yours sincerely,
isam who else

Dreams

2010-06-17T18:38:00.000-07:00

Remember when you are young,
You have this strong ambition.
Ambition about become a famous rockstar, singer, actor and etc.
I found it funny when I recalled back my dream to be a Power Ranger.
hahahaha.
I seriously do not know why.
But not only Power Ranger, I still dream to be a astraunant, policeman, F1 driver and so on.
Maybe this is because I get easily influeces by television when I was a small boy then.
But looing back, its not wrong to have this dreams coz it help us as a child have alot of ambition so that we can start a great kick-off when we will get older.
I tend to miss my childhood days.
All those running in the playground, stress-free, no problems facing and just to have FUN!
I just love it!
hahahaha.

"Only 'boy' chasing their dream, but real men go through it and realise it just a dream."

But still I love Power Ranger!
hahahaha.
till then,
2 more days.

yours sincerely,
Isam who else.

Boredom.

2010-06-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

well, I decide to write today coz I had a boring day.
In the morning I got extra class to attend to.
Imagine from monday to friday!
9AM TO 4PM!
mane boleh carry.
tahi masuk balik ah gini mcm.
spoilt la the management.
anyway, is just my luck.
oh well.

Bayanganmu datang kembali dengan secara tiba-tiba.
Sehingga aku mimpi temui kamu.
Adakah ini tanda-tanda bahwa kamu akan datang kembali?
Aku harap tidak. Apa sudah berlaku 2 tahun yang lalu,
aku tidak mahu kembali pulang.
Yang sudah tu sudah.
Simply said I'm moved on.
I really don't have the mood to have a relationship right now after what happen to me recently.
She make me confused about love. But I hope you will not get mad at her.
Sorry but it is the best way for me. Find other guy who can treat you well better than I do when we are together last two years.

Sorry.

Sunday PLEASE COME FAST

2010-06-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

Please sunday come fast!
I really can't wait for the trip.
Butterflies in the stomach.(should I say cicak in the stomach?)
hahahaha.
lameo!
I really can't wait for the OAC members smile and enjoy at there.
But the important thing is the BONDING,
I hope they soon will understand what is the meaning of the ONE OAC, ONE FAMILY.

WE HOLD TO THE WING OF THE EAGLE,
AND WATCH AS WE FLY AWAY!

Yours sincerely,
Isam19 who else

Lollipop

2010-06-12T22:19:00.000-07:00

POP POP LOLLIPOP!

GIVE ME BACK MY LOLLIPOP!

Hahahahah!

Lame!

I so want to have a big huge lollipop!

craving for it!

OMG.

hahahahaha.

someone buy me lollipop can? hahahaha

I give a kiss in return.

haahahahah bluek!

sorry for the randomness.

Take care!

I'm not afraid

2010-06-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

I'm not afraid nor I'm scared.
I will not roll a single teardrop on my cheeks.
I given my best as human beings have its own limits.
I will give my upmost sincere smile to show I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid nor I'm scared.
Every dream have its own story.
Some are sad, happy and angry.
But yet, I will still dream again even its hurts coz I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid nor I'm scared.
I wish you well but I wish you knew.
Better to say how you feel and get your heart broken.
Than leave words in your heart forever unspoken.
Just love the guy who you love now.
Your happiness is just what I want to see.
I forgive you for hurting me and so do I if there something I said to hurt you.
You get my blessing.
Hope you will retain a ever-lasting relationship with him.
Promise me that.
I'm moved on coz I'm not afraid.

Despite every failure that I faced,
but still I'm not afraid of it.
Coz every failure shows the strong side of me to be a better person.
Lastly,
I'm not afraid nor I'm scared........

Yours sincerely,
Isam19 who else
(':

2010-06-10T10:48:00.001-07:00

I just can't get my eyes close during bedtime lately.

Someone PLEASE TELL ME A BEDTIME STORY!!!

Hahahahah.

Am I hyper active at night or what?

Hahahaha.

I'm taken.

Feewit!

hahahaha.

I'm in love.

Her name is WORK.

GOTCHA!

I will be busy with her till I am graduated.

Hahahaha.

Not that work,

what I meant is school work.

Gotcha again.

Heeeheee.

I so happy with current situation.

Living my life happily but not ever after.

hahaha.

I so gonna miss my family and friends in Singapore when I'm in malaysia.

But look on the brighter side, I will gonna have fun with my lovelies 7 siblings and members there.

Pray hard enough that everything goes well.

Well thats all.

I guess.

hahaha.

will write again.

no promise.

hahahahaha.

Yours sincerely,

isam19 who else

=))

OMG

2010-06-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

At the losing end.

I was about to give up.

But suddenly something give me hope and strength to carry on.

Its between me, silence and misery.

These stand within me.

I am who I am.

No one is me except me.

Choices have its own consequences like I say.

That should be me

2010-06-08T05:02:00.000-07:00

Well I just heard this song recently from my younger brother.
Its tittle 'That should be me' by JB.
This song is what I am feeling right now,
If only she can understand.

2010-06-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

wow. its been long i nvr touch this blog of mine.
really empty huh?
well apologize if i nvr update much.
been busy with my stuff this past few months.
alot of things need to be settle.
sorry once again. hahaha.

Yesterday i was sick till today.
last night after the intensive training, i check my temperature it was 39.4 degree.
a really high fever.
yesterday i just want to take mc sia. i was really weak from yesterday morning.
i just hate sickness.
haish.

bdw guys on the 20th till 25th june i will not in singapore. I will be away to pahang.
YipEEEEEEE! can't wait for it.
I hope all things will go smoothly.
insyaAllah. Amin.
Don't miss me aite.
=D

I want to say something but I scared.
I scared that I will say something offensive.
Is this love a lie?
Why must I think too much of it?
Am I just not ready for that thing you say that you had feelings for other guy?
Am I really have you deep inside my heart?
Question after question keep bothering in my mind.
but nvmind.
I just don't want to think about it.
I will just smile pretending nothing happen.

that all folks.

I got a girlfriend now

2010-04-16T10:32:00.000-07:00

Wohoo!
Isam got girlfriend. nanny nanny poo poo.
If you believe what I say, too bad,
YOU GUYS been FAKED!
haha.
Actually I still single.
I just boring that point of time.
I don't even know who irah is.
haha.

Well,I still have feelings for this girl.
but things get complicated.
but nvmind.
I still keep my promises to you.
Ku akan menjagamu dan sayang kamu dgn sepenuh kejujuran dan keihklasan di dalam hatiku.
dan ku tidak mahu menjadi lelaki biskuit.

so thats all folks.
gdnite!
isam in wonderland.

2010-04-12T10:44:00.000-07:00

All the things that I want.
All the things that I desired.
All the things that I plan.
Some of it failed and some are not.
I learn I should not be greedy.
I thankful enough what I have now.

Maybe the best outcome for me now is just keep quiet and just go with the flow.
Family, friends, OAC, Banzai United and school are my top priority now.
If you really like and have open your heart for me, I promise I will put you first.
But if you scared of the past which haunts you again, what can I say.
My heart is not for playing, it is for love and care.
But now, drop love. Give me sincerity.
If you wanna go, I'll let you go.
I'll not hold grudges against you.
But I just want you to know, you are the last one who I want to fall in love with.

I know where I stand.
I know where I came from.
I know humans are not meant to be perfect.
So I hope you will be happy.
Thats all.

You just too good to be true,
I can't take my eyes off you.
I want to love you so much,
But I know only time will tell.

Sorry that I have feelings for you.

2010-04-12T02:29:00.000-07:00

Sorry for leaving this post for a long time.
Been busy with my OAC, family and work.
They are my top priority now.
Cause I loving it.
Haha.

oh yeah, I got new class. class S. S for sachok! haha.
Back to square one then.

'If you always want to hold the things you want to say,
you are always going to be afraid.'

Till then,
Isam who else

2010-04-07T09:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, things is yet to be complicated.

2010-04-05T01:18:00.000-07:00

Hahaha.
I really speechless and shocked by yesterday.

"Ku berjanji ku akan menjagamu dengan secara ikhlas."

Clueless indeed. Never saw that coming. hahaha!

Isam who else.

About a girl

2010-03-28T08:53:00.000-07:00

If you think this post about a girl,
sorry to say that I am NOT writting about it.
This post is ain't bout a girl.
This shit is ain't bout a girl.

I will not going to waste my breath on girls.
I will just let them pass by me.
I will gonna stop whinning about this love thing.
Cause I too young to fall in love.
I got better plan ahead.
I will set for my dream to get to poly and study hard to get to university one day.
But girls out there, I am not trying to hate you girls or what.
But I still respect you girls.
Without you girls, guys will be gay.
Is the fact alright. Hahaha.

ouhya, I like to apologised to Munira for scolding her on msn.
Sorry moon. I didn't mean to scold you lah. I just was not in the right state of mind cause there is something buggering me and fyi, you are not the one to be blame. Sorry if I choose you as my punching bag. Scold me if you want to. I don't mind coz I was in the wrong and not you. Hope you understand. :)

Boys have huge ego, girls are fickle-minded.
Thats is the fact why some relationship are ruined.
Like I say boys don't understand girls, and girls don't understand boys.
Vice versa I could say.

FYI, I respect your decision and like I said I gonna respect it.:)
I hope you gonna be happy and live life the fullest.
Happy go lucky matey!

To my beloved sister Nur Hidayah Bte Mohamed Akbar,
I hope you will get well soon. makan ubat tau jgn tk mkn.
Merana aku dibuatnye untuk kasi kau ubat tadi. I love you sis! I just want you to be healthy and be happy thats all. Aku sayang Kakak tweetybird aku nie.

so ya,
thats about it I guess.
Till then,

Gd DAY PPL!

Yours sincerely,
Isam who else
=D

2010-03-27T22:10:00.000-07:00

Cinta.
Ada apa dgn cinta.
Apa maksud cinta?
C.erita I.ndah N.amun T.iada A.khirnya.

Cerita semalam buatku sedar bahawa cinta itu mmg tidak adil.
Walaupun hatiku betul-betul mencintai beliau,
namun dia tetap tidak dapat kelihatan bahawa aku benar-benar mencintainya.
Apakah daya diriku ini untuk menglangkah pergi dan menghapuskn jejakmu.
aku tk berniat untuk bermusuh bersamamu.
Cuma aku pikir kau yg mahu menggelakkan diri dariku.

Tapi ku harus berterima kasih kerana untuk mengenali kamu.
Kamu adalah wanita istimewa bagiku.
Aku cuma berdoa bahawa kamu akan bahagia di masa hadapan.
Dan aku ingin beritahu kamu bahawa bukan semua lelaki adalah biskuit.

Berhenti berharap.

2010-03-27T21:29:00.000-07:00

Before you let me fall,
kill me so I won't feel it at all,
push my body up against the wall,
and pick your poison,
cause everything feels wrong,
and I don't know where I belong.

Take me for granted,
make me feel used,
leave me in pieces,
misery is company,
cause I know that is real,
I learned to love the pain,
cause that's the only way that I know how to feel.

Sorry for the short post.

till then.

Random thoughts

2010-03-19T10:55:00.000-07:00

See this picture up here? This is last year Mt Stong trip in kelantan. This group is called Oscar.This is where I become the G.I(Group Instructor/Group In-charge) of the group. and I really miss those days with them. I love OAC!

I really can't wait for camp. Camp is just around the corner. Tak sabar seh aku. Hahaha. Lets backpack your stuff and go camping with me. Hahaha!

Just now OAC training was great to me. I can see the members have alot of fun on today activities. If I knew I come earlier to see you guys but because of the stupid make up lesson, I can't. WTH!

In my thoughts now.

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. I may not have the looks or talented like other guys out there. But I only can give my heart sincerely to you if you willing to give a chance on me. I like you not because of I want to play your heart but your personality capture my heart. I know love take time and can't be force. Doesn't mean I keep quiet, I don't know what is happening. Be true to me and I be true to you. That is all I want from you."

Till then,

Amin.

Your sincerely,

Isam in wonderland

2010-03-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

The first time I met you,
I didn't think I would Fall in love with you,
But I did.
And I sorry for that.

Sometimes we waste time looking for the perfect lover instead of creating the perfect love.

Thats the reason why,
when we are young and fall in love.

For you,
"Like the leaves on all the trees,
impossible to be counted.
Thats how I feel for you
and I won't take you for granted.

Like the water on all the rivers,
long endless and gentle.
Thats how my love is for you.
Smooth, soft and subtle.

Like the sun that shines on me,
its rays piercing my eyes.
I wouldn't mind if I couldn't see,
but with you I can see for miles.

Love is a game,
or so they say.
I'll play with you,
come what may.
By your side is where I'll stay.
I hope you wouldn't mind me trying.

You can be sure you won't be left alone crying,
Cause you know I be lying.
If I say, we won't win this game we're playing."

Just Random,

I really like this picture on top^^

Btw guys, Isam is going camping on 21st to 25 march 2010.

So I will leave this blog dusty.

hahha.

Don't miss me okay.

I know I cute to resist.

hahaha.

Macam paham! :p

So yeah, Isam in wonderland.

hahah.

till then,

amin.

Ps. Three more days. I like. ^.^

Yours sincerely,

Isam in wonderland

2010-03-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

Sick.

Down with high fever and flu.

Temperature reading is 40.6 degrees.

So shagged plus need to work.

PS. Patience is what I need now.

till then,

ouhya, bdw I miss my 7 lovely Co-member!

Amin.

Sorry for not attending Saturday Mus and Nisa birthday's Bash. Hope you guys understand. Love you guys truckloads! haha.

Yours sincerely,

Isam who else

Only time will tell.

2010-03-14T04:31:00.000-07:00

'Here a rose from me to you.
Take it if you really like me,
Throw it if you don't like me.
So that I know I will not wasting my time on you.'

Love doesn't walk away, people do.

Sometimes I feel that there is no point..........NVM forget about it.
How long will I be searching?
How long will I be waiting?
How long will you realise that I really do exist?
How long more?
Only time will tell.

Honesty is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard,
and that is mostly I need from you.

To be loved, to be loved.
What more you could ask for.
To be loved, to be loved.
Everyone wants to be loved.
Everyone including me and you.

"The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart."

What currently on my mind.

"I want you to know sometimes I wanted to quit to know you better.
But I still holding on the reason I should not quit.
Sometimes I felt that you don't give me a chance but maybe there is a reason behind it.
Sometimes I feel you don't have the intention to know me better like I do towards you.
I don't want this fight happen again and again.
because I love you.
I sorry.
This is just what is my point of view towards you, Abang."

Maybe its better to be this way.
I don't disturb your life, You don't disturb my life.

Till then,

amin.

I hope she let me to share her dreams.

Yours Sincerely,
Isam who else =D

PS. I miss your laugh

Love? 50-50 lah

2010-03-12T08:13:00.000-08:00

Hey3!
Sorry for not updating my blog.
Been busy nowadays.
OAC Camp is around the corner and I can't wait it to come.
Yahoo.com!
LOL!

I feeling Ga-ga right now.
This feeling is unexplainable.
I don't know how to write it in words.
If I can write a song just for you, I hope you can listen and understand how I feel towards you.
I don't envy your looks and character. But I envy your heart.
I love you and that is all I care about.
Among the stars in the sky, I choose you because you are the most shining star among the rest.
If only you know how I feel.
But I can't force you to love me.
It takes time and I am aware of it.
If only you really really really know how I feel towards you.
If only.

Just now most of my friend know my weakness!
Shit man.
Dumbass!
I really2 cannot see ppl vomit or making sound of vommitting in front of me.
I surely start to feel vomit.
Nabei lah u guys.
HAHAHA!
But I really found it funny sia.=D
haha!

anyways till here.
Pancit already loh.
Need to pump back.
hahah.

Yours sincerely,
Isam who else =D

2010-03-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

Am I in love right now?
I don't know lah.
Am I prepared for it?
Will I prepare to have the consequences?
Only god knows how i feel.

This girl make me fall in love again.
Her silly laughing makes me so happy.
and I don't know why.
Her randomness is really funny.
A cheerful and soft spoken girl.
I want to know her better.
I hope she will open her heart for me.
How I wish.
haha.
If only she knows how I feel.

Life have been great for me.
I like the situation now.
I determine to be better.
I wish I can bring out the best of me.

till then,
Amin.

I hope you will be mine one day.
Hope so.

Yours sincerely,
Isam

OAC

2010-03-05T09:00:00.000-08:00

Responsibility.

The state of having important duties or job given.

Become the C.I of Outdoor Adventure Club have a huge responsibility.

Not only by taking care of the club but also the welfare of the members and even my Lovely 7 other CO members.
I join OAC is not about getting the highest rank or whatsoever.

I join this club because of the passion for this club.
I never found OAC but OAC found me.

To be frank, I don't even know there is OAC in ITE Simei when the first time I came into ITE life.

I am happy that I found Mus and Fareez who ask me to join this club.

They are the one who force me to give it a try on the club.

and I never regret joining it.

Truely enough I have to admit that OAC is the best CCA I ever join.

I love OAC.

Haha.

Now I would like to take this chance to appreciate the people who change my life in OAC before they are graduate from ITE.

They are the CO Member'09.

Fadil - A leader with his own style of leadership. Very ambitious and dare to take the risk. Never selfish about sharing his leadership. I remember when you share with me at the hotel room in Kelantan. Thats when I make up my mind to be the next CO Member and also become your successor. And true enough, you pass down your post to me. Thanks for putting faith on me. I will always remember what you taught me at the hotel room.

Fazuan - A strict but yet clumsy leader in OAC. Always talk to me about dance crew. Go shopping with you like very the kecoh. Macam nak celebrate Raya gitu. haha. Always put the extra effort on his duties as A.C.I. Sacrifice his dance for a year just for OAC. A bangla wannabe.

Love to get free item. haha.

Nisa - A really damn strict leader in OAC but outside, she is really a fun easy-going person. Can be an actress one day because of her facial expression. I still remember her irratatiness of squeezing here and there just to get beside imran. walauwei, you are big for goodness sake. haha.

Yet I have fun with you everytime you make your silly face and the way you walk like damn funny. haha. No offence nisa.

Imran - Same as Nisa also. But he is a mat rep. So fierce sometimes I don't dare to talk to you. Really sia. Haha. I remember when you scold me at Mt stong. You teach me that A leader must not run away from problems but to solve them. But one thing, don't be fierce can? Muka seriously macam Mat rep. haha. No offence. Just play-play only.

Iza - A leader who always think of members first before her. Willing to sacrifice her time for members. But to me, you are a great friend. I never regret knowing you and even fall for you.

All the memories that we gone through thick and thin I will always remember in my heart. I am happy for you to be with kamal now. Your happiness is my happiness. My promises to you, I will try to fullfill it. I am sorry if I done wrong to you in whatever thing I did wrong. Thanks for giving me hope and a listening ear when I have problems. I really appreciate it alot. Thanks azizah.

Chun - Although you are the P.T.I and QM for the club, you try to think alternative ways to bring the club up. Raising the club's Fund, bonding with the JAn'09 with April'09, useful to the community at the same time by putting us volunteer in any marathon. I find it useful and effective. I like. haha. You babi punye cina. haha.

Not to forget, Aqhari and Fadillah.

But I can't write now about them cause I tired already. But next post I write about them.

Promise.

haha.

Finally, I hope the OAC spirit still alive in your heart after you guys graduate from ITE. Thanks for giving me, Job, Munirah, Sarah, Kamal, Fareez, Murniyati and Mustafa Kamal as the successor of this club. We will uphold our responsibility, commitment, passion and love for this club. Thanks for all your naggings and putting the faith in us. We will never let you down. I wish all the best on the behalf of the CO member'10 and the members of Outdoor Adventure Club in your future and may god bless you always. We will definitely miss you guys.

Till then,

Amin.

I thanks Allah for knowing you guys.

Yours sincerely,

!$@m19 who else

Reflection

2010-03-04T00:59:00.000-08:00

Looking back the 18 years of my life.
The bittersweet memories that I shared with my family and friends.
The achievement and failure that I gone through.

Being a young adult taught me to be more mature in my thinking and character.
and I must be ready what lies ahead of me.
I can't be scared of it.

"The more you fear, the more you don't want to move on in your life."-Isam

Everything that I do, I always never regret.
Because this is my choice.
True enough, Choices have consequences.
I don't blame fate and time that cause my failure but I blame myself for not giving a good choice.
Every mistake I get, I will learned it so that it won't happen again in the future.
Cause I know God want me to learn from it.
I am beginning to love my life.
Although it been tough for the beginning of the year but I know my family and friends are there to support me.
I will always never regret the failure that I made because this is my choice.

Looking ahead.
I know that some good things are waiting for me.
I have to look far in life so that I can enjoy my stay in this world.
Who knows tomorrow might be the last day of staying on earth.
I really want to leave this world looking good and happy. Not sad and untidy.

till then,
go to work later.
Adios!

Amin.

I thanks Allah for making YOU GUYS OUT THERE as my lovely friends!

Yours sincerely,
!$@m19 who else
=D

2010-03-03T09:07:00.000-08:00

Today so tired.

I feel so happy cause some work have been done.

Job at Canadian Pizza was fun.

Make some new friends.

Camp is getting nearer and I can't wait for it to come.

I would like to thanks my CO-member who really put in the effort on this.

And not to forgetten, the EX-CO members of 2009, Aqhari and of course, Fadillah for thier guidance for the past few months.

I really thanks you guys on helping us although me and my CO members make mistakes.

I am really appreciate your guidance. =)

Thanks for all the patience in us.

My CO member and I make ourselves a name each.

Here it goes.

Nor Isam(Chief Instrutor) - Mr Cute

Job Goh(Assistant Chief Instrutor) - Mr Cool

Sri Munira(Secetary) - Ms Sweet

Md Kamal(Head Logistics) - Mr Untouchable

Sarah(Treasurer) - Ms Pretty

Md Fareez(P.T.I & QM) - Mr Hotstuff

Murniyati(Student Welfare) - Ms Irratating

Mustafa Kamal(First Aider) - Mr Handsome or Mr Old Man

Hahaha

Cool right?

I know.

hahah.

Till then,

Amin.

I thanks Allah for having them as my co member.

Yours Sincerely,

!$@m19 who else

2010-02-28T01:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, ECP with my OAC peeps was fun.

I really enjoy myself most of the time yesterday.
I hope we were still continue the bonding together in OAC.

OAC ROCK MY UNDERWEAR OFF!

Till then,

Your cute person,

Isam who else

2010-02-25T02:38:00.000-08:00

Sing me a lullaby song,
and I will go to sleep.

Hahahaha! =D

Music.

Remind me of my Ex-Bandmates.

The jamming Studio.

The Drum.

The Bass.

The Guitar.

And of course, the Microphone.

The music we made.

The passion we believe in.

The sounds producing by our heart and soul.

Good times. Really good times.

I think I should start back to play music.
Pick up my guitar back.

Its been a long time I touch my guitar.

Really long time.

All the songs that I learned, I forget the chords already.

Such a waste. Bleargh!

I want to start back where I stop.

Maybe start all over again.

Now I want to play acoustic.

I think it suits me and my character.

Playing acoustic make me to express my feelings and thoughts.

This is me.
Proud to be me.

and of course, I am cute! (Don't jealous eh. Its the fact!)

I think I will stop here.

Enough writing already.

Got a job interview later.

Hope it went well.

I really need to work.

Pray for me aite!

Till then.

Amin.

Yours sincerely,

!$@m19 who else

This is for you.

2010-02-24T16:24:00.000-08:00

All the good things soon will come to the end.
Memories kept for a good reason.
Cherish this moments of life.
Because there is no replay.
Life is like a story with one take only, no cut so whatever.

Good memories lead to happy life.
The bad ones lead to other way around.

"It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief... lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming." — Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)

From a baby boy,
I never once a man.
But when I see your brown eyes cry,
it hurt my heart so bad.
Sorry if I never do things what you ask me.
I do my best to change for the better.
Not only for me but for you and the rest who know me.
I was blinded by your love.
I did not noticed that much.
You are the one who always be there for me.
and I did not realised it.
Now I realised, I need you alive.
There is no better love than mother's love for her children.
Mama, you are the best for me.
You show me what true love means.
I love you, mama.

I thanks Allah for having you as my mom.

Amin.

Till then.

Yours sincerely,
!$@m19 who else
=D

2010-02-24T00:09:00.000-08:00

Memories.
Some are good and some are bad.
Some are the best and some are the worst.

A wise man say,
'As my memories rest, never forgot what I lost'

The life that I force to live,
I scared of rhe road ahead,
But when looked behind me,
There are great memories left behind by me.
Now I can't wait what lies ahead of me in the future.

Now I will proved those betrayers out there that I can stand against my ground.
Proudly and Firmly.

So here I am.
Standing tall and waiting to fly freely.
When challenges ahead,
there gonna be changes.
I will face it with no fears.

'To learn to succeed,
you must learn to fail' - Micheal Jordan.

Just when I am getting better,
You come to hunt me again.
I admit I have weak knees,
counting the number of knee injuries including this one;
but I don't give up like you did.
Even if I have to start over every single time,
I will not give up like you did now.

I thank Allah for everything that has given me.
Amin.

Till then,

Yours sincerely,
!$@m19 who else
=D

Down....

2010-02-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

I need someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on.
I hate this part.
I need you.
I want you.
I love you.

Lets go back to the past.
Where there is you, me and WE.
Sitting in a corner where we let our hair down.
Sharing our problems together.
Disturb one another.
Crack jokes among we both.
We share our shoulder to cry on.
Where you call out my name and I was there with you and you do the same too.
All the things that we be done together.
Promises that we made for each other.
Where people thought that we could be an item.
I miss those great times of both of us.

Soon, I know one day..........
Argh!

I stop typing for now.
I have no mood to type.
I just need someone to lend me their shoulder to cry on please.

Hate this part right here.

2010-02-21T20:52:00.000-08:00

Hello guys!
I feel like writing now.
Get some inspiration from Fadil's FB status.
Let me share with you guys.

'if u truly love somebody.. fight against all odds..,than ignore those who are against..but if ur not commited..,afraid to lose out ur fame .., afraid to lose many friends..,unable to rid ur ego..then forget it... only true friends will support you.., but unfortunately..,the bad ones will blind you..'
By Fadil.

I think its a deep sentence.
It tell me not to give up and fight against all odds if I really love that person.

Lately, I found out that I started to miss something or someone in my life.
Maybe everything that I do remind me of her.
I start to miss everything I do with her.
A memories of her still stuck inside my head.
A person who I can depend on when I in trouble.
A person who I really appreciate to came into my life.

Why is this feelings keep bothering me?
Am I scared to lose her?
If only, she give me time to open up her heart for me.
I would take my chances on it.

'The best feeling in the world is when the person you love, love you back.'

If you could see me now.
A place called HERE.
Enchanting and unexpected you.
Sometimes it's about living life one letter at a time.
Everyone needs a gurdian angel.
Ever wondered where the lost things go?
Sometimes fate just can't stop meddling.
All I can say is, I love you the way you are.

If I can wrote a piece of paper about you everyday,
in the bottom of the paper
I would say is,
PS. I Love You

'Cinta dalam Hati'

Till then,

Your sincerely,
!$@m19 who else
=D

This one for you, Fadillah.

2010-02-21T05:39:00.000-08:00

Why?
Beause she asked me too.
She liked my previous post so this one for Fadillah and all of you out there.
Lol.
Here it goes.

I am a broken man.
I am not broke.
But just plain broken hearted man who lost in love recently.

I just love to use the word 'what if,'
Let me write down a list of it.

What if I died tomorrow, will she cry for me?
What if I died tomorrow, will she misses me?
What if I died tomorrow, will she regret to lose me?
What if I died tomorrow, did I make her happy before I go?

There's only hate,
there's only tears,
there's only pain,
But there is no love here.

'Underneath anger is hurt,
but underneath hurt is love.'

My uncle use to say this,
'Cinta tu ibarat kentut,
nk diluah kan rasa malu,
nk dipendam kan rasa perit,
nk dilepas kan rasa takut terkencet.
Itu lah cinta.'
I find it funny but its true.

Sometimes being failed in love show me how to be strong.
How to love and learn myself for the better.
I need to start to be myself.

I will learn to love again.
But I will stand a broken man.

Till then,

Yours sincerely,
!$@m19 who else
=D

2010-02-21T04:04:00.000-08:00

Hello! I back to blogging..
It really damn dusty right?
Oh well..
Why I start blogging back?
Because I want to change myself for the better..
I hope my post can help to change life of a person or anyone else for the good.. =D

So, today topic is about LOVE!
Get the inspiration from my lovely friend, Fadillah.
LOL. I just like to talk about love to her.
LOL.
So here it goes.

LOVE.
Give a perfect definition about love.
Hmmm, let me see.
Love is just a word, until you find someone to give it a definition.
Am I right to say that?

For those who in love right now, congratz to you guys.
For those who in hurt about love like me, cheer up okay.
There still hope for you guys.
Its not like the end of the world.
And of course, sucide its not a way to solve your problems okay?

I just recently been hurt by love.
I know its hard to forget about it,
But I will still find hope.
Let me talk about this girl whom I fall for.

This girl make my life wonderful.
I love her the way she is.
I respect her alot.
She always try to make me to believe on my dreams and don't give up in life.
I still remember the quote she tell me that make me fall for her.
"Jom kita sama-sama sedih dan sama-sama kita bergembira."
What a strong sentence.
The silly things she do make me think that she cute on her on way.
Her smile.
Her laugh.
Her sacrifice.
Her semi deaf ears.
Her sillyness.
Her caring thoughts.
Every thing about her is so special for me.
Her family situation and mine almost the same.
We had many things in common.
But too bad.
I thought we were meant to be together. but not.

'To be with you as a friend is all I ever wanted,
but to be with you more than a friend is what I ever dream of.'

Sometimes love can be too complicated.
For an instance,
Loving the right person at the wrong time,
loving the wrong person at the right time.
But worst of all,
is being in LOVE TRIANGLE!

I been in this situation many times.
I scared to fall in love because of this.
Really.
Its damn hurt to be in this situation.

Love really hurt but sometimes it can be sweet.
Its how you accept things. Not blaming it.

You want to let go, but at times you know you couldn't. The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of.

That the reason why,
when you are young and fall in love.

Learn to fall and thats where you can be a stronger person.

Till then,

Yours sincerely
!$@m19 who else. =D

Ps. I Love You

First time blogging... Jakun sak..

2009-03-21T12:45:00.000-07:00

Hey i'm new to this. I feeling soo anxious. Yeahyeah! WTH. Kinda freak am i right? So as I was saying this is my first time blogging. If there any mistaken or any thing you dislikes about this blog, PLS POINT OUT my errors. Wah feeling 'shiok' to write this alone(like a emo). Emo shit!

Let me introduce myself, My name is Isam. Some called me asam,mee siam and so on. But I am use to it anyway. Going to 17 baby! turn one year older on 211292. Long right? Can't wait to take lincense(car n bike). Nyehnyeh. Love to make jokes. I'm a mr funny guy. haha. Thats what my fren told me. Loves MUSIC! Can't live without them.

Now lets talk about my day today. Wake at 12noon. Mum start to nagging at me to find work blablabla. My ear can be deaf if this goes on and on. Went to bath after that and stand by my soccer boots for my soccer training. Today training is damn tough. Got physical training by my coach. WTH! Kaki boleh putus sak ginie. Tk percaye tanye teammates aku yg lain. Then got 9 aside friendly with the rest of the teammates. Coach gets angry with us bcoz we are not serious in our training and our standard of playing has drop. And just now my boot got tear! sobsob. but luckily its my brother one. lol! After that when to eat at kopi shop near west park. treat azwan(my best bud) coz he don't have money. NK tunjuk simpati kat aku katekn. But fed up with him coz he say to me he damn hungry but after buying food for him, few bites later, he tell me he not feeling to eat the rice and I was so stress up dude! If i know abit sooner, i probably not treat him sia.WTH! Unlucky day. After eating,received a msg from coach. He wanted to apologised about he scolded us on today's training. But I understand coz he the coach and have the rights to say about our attitude. Now at home, can't sleep. WTH! ok lah till here. Penat aku type.lol.

Yrs truly,

isam who else...

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